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SICK THE WEEK BEFORE CON!!?? + Creepers.

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 01:18:24 GMT

_{I am sick. It started at 4 am Sunday morning. I couldn't stop sneezing so I woke up and took a pill to help me but it never stopped ALL of Sunday all I could was sneeze. Sometimes I would need 6 times in a row! I really felt light-headed and like I was going to past out at those points. I have taken a stronger pill since then but my it hurts really bad when I cough, I can't breathe threw my nose or taste my food. My skull feels like it's cracking it hurts so much and all this light is driving me fucking insane.

Ugh. I don't have the energy to finish my cosplays and stuff I needed to do and I can't find my Sociology text book to study for the test tomorrow. I am hoping it's in the truck.

Besides being sick today was really fun. The internet was down so Laura and I had fun with Cheeko. It was awesome. I got to touch the new girl's boobs (I sound like a creeper but she grabbed my hand and placed them there!) it was really random. I don't remember what we were talking about. But apparently the older guy tripped her on purpose and caught her and grabbed and squeezed her breast. I noticed at one point she had gone from friendly to really defensive but didn't know why til I read her FB status. Not cool :/.
This same guy messaged my on FB regarding a status I had posted a few minutes ago about wanting to go to the lolita meet-up in Greensboro. He wants to come and stare at cute girls....wtf. Or get people I never met to go with me since I mentioned not wanting to go to the meet-up alone. There is no way in hell I am accepting.

I feel so miserable. Please shoot me now.}

AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 02:45:27 GMT

_{I miiight get to see Elijah early next week!

I remembered he doesn't have class on thursday so I asked him if he'd be willing to come to North Carolina with my dad that night, sleep over and we all drive to VA together in the morning and he said yes!. I asked mom but dad had gone to bed before I could ask but I am sure he'll say yes. Otherwise Elijah will have to take the bus and train alone and he doesn't know how to get to the hotel alone. And I need extra hands to help me carry my Blair's wig and hat so it works out for both of us!

I'm so excited!! >w<

I practically finished my lolita outfit today. It's inspired by Angelic Pretty's Bunny Pocket's JSK. The only thing I have to do is finish Elijah's tie (I am too tired to sew anything atm so it's just sitting there half finished on my machine. But everything else is done. I still have to finish Miku and Blair too but both are half finished (Blair is missing buttons on the hat and diamonds on the dress and Miku's wig needs to be hot water treated and have the ribbons tied to it.

But for now I am tired and am going to bed.

I can't wait to see hiiiiiiiiiiiiim >w< it's been too long!}

I'm caught in a bad romance

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 22:24:17 GMT

_{No not really. I am just addicted to this song atm.

Art show was today! they called for us to come but I was too nervous to go ;A; the other graphic design students sort of scare me so I never hang out with them. I guess it's because no one smiles. In "Asian Pop Culture Club" people smile at me so I know they are friendly ;w;.
Today I almost learned to play Yu Gi Oh. Nick kept getting distracted and didn't want tot play anymore so I took over but because I don't know how to play Andy did all the work and I just held the cards lol fail. Also I discovered the "drama" half of the room. Geezh they are so dramatic. I am sure there is good reason but I am so tired of people running out the room crying or telling people now isn't the time because someone is crying and should just leave the room. Ugh. And Colleen thinks I am so sweet and don't bitch about anyone lol she'd love my LJ.

This week (besides finding out AJ is leaving) was awesome! Nelson his lesbian friend and I called "Mr.Pretty Eyes" at home and just started staying random stuff to him on the phone. It was awesome. I laughed so hard I cried. He didn't know I was there so when I said " HI MR. PRETTY EYES!" he started cussing really loud and screaming "NO NOT YOU!". At one point I just started singing the lyrics to the apple bottom jeans song (yeah I don't know the title lol.) Nelson had to feed me most of the lines since I only knew the first two. Apparently he was "trying to get laid" and asked us if we would stop calling him but at the same time he told me he couldn't hang up on me even though a few times he did XD. Bitch.

Anime USA is next week! I found out that Justin A.K.A the guy that booked our room can't make it anymore. Meaning it's only me and Elijah in a room together (ooh la la). Kathy can't make it anymore either :C so now I am only thinking about cosplaying on friday and wearing lolita for saturday (and miku). I really have no other plans. I wanted to go to the Kaya concert but I have to magically get a badge for Elijah and I doubt anyone will let me steal theirs for until the concert is over :<. I need to remember to print out my papers so I can get my badge. I will be packing everything on sunday that is finished. I can't believe it's next weekend and I STILL don't have Miku even started yet. Ugh. I shouldn't be posting I should be sewing!

Oh and I dyed my hair :)
It was actually a huge mistake (the lady sold me the wrong developer!, mom works for the company so we can't get my money back) and I don't know if I like it yet or not but meh. If I dare complain about it even the slightest bit mom will flip on me about how she is right so I will just nod and say I like it. I didn't like my blonde hair that much either it took a few days for me to get use to it. I'll post photos but the ones I took suck. I only have lamps for light so it looks weird.}

Sadness :C

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 21:08:07 GMT

_{Today an old friend popped into the wireless room. He use to go to our school and was there last semester but he one day never showed up for pretty much two weeks. We all thought something bad happened yet he was very active on facebook. I PMed him asking him what's up and he told me he would visit us soon but never gave me the reason he was out of school til today.

He's leaving to go to NYC for a year to become a Buddhist monk :C. He pretty told us if there was anything of his we wanted he would give it to us for free (I tried to get his computer but someone already had dibs on it. Shit.). I hate seeing friends go. It's the most heart breaking thing ever. ACC won't be the same.

Other than that today was decent. I submitted some pieces to my school's art competition. I am excited to see my work on display tomorrow. One of the pieces I submitted was this:

It looks so beautiful on nice glossy paper~! but the printer fucked it up :/ it sort of shifted on one of the bunnies. I hope they don't think it's shit because the printer messed it up. The other turned out fine though.

P.S. This rain needs to stop like now plz. All the rivers are flooded, it's sort of fun to see but I hate the rain so I wish it would stop! also it's cold and rainy >O< ugh. I hate this.}

Ugh. College is hard

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 22:21:12 GMT

_{I stressed like hell to study for my Drawing exam last week. I even woke up and grabbed my notes to read them before getting dressed and guess what. I still managed a D. Thing is I had way more right than wrong and he COULD have been a nice guy and gave me half credit on one answer (I forgot to add a word) but no. He marked the whole thing wrong and wrote the word I left out :/. It pissed me off. I had a friend look at it and the grade was right but ughhhh. At least the part I stressed on I got correct with a +. I am happy about that.

I feel like I am going to fail this semester of college. I don't know where my brain is and it's mostly the test that kill me. I hate test.

I also hate people. I know I bitch about a lot of my so called "friends" here but I don't really hate anyone. People shift from my good side to my bad side with their behavior but this bitch. I don't know. We are so similar but opposites. I am really girly and draw cute things and she is more "Digital artist are lazy bitches" super traditional art only hypocrite goth (makes no sense.). Today I had to do some art homework so I took my canvas back to the room to wait til my ride comes. Another friend walks in but I don't start talking to them as a group I just sort of sit in the corner texting and the friend that walks in is talking to her about her artwork and is all "Hey do you should take classes here for drawing" and bitch is all "lol I am already good at art the classes and teachers here are a fucking joke and the people that take them don't know how to draw and never will and I don't need classes cause I am really really great AT EVERYTHING". I seriously think she was really trying to slam me. But thing is. I am not in college to study how to draw. I am here for Graphic Design. We focus on illustrations,magazine layouts,poster designs, etc etc. Drawing 1 is just a class you have to take for the program to sort of see how you are and remember basics.

Like today we did magazine spreads:

Sorry the image is small. It's basically a magazine spread featuring Lagy Gaga's crazy fashion outfits and an article about her talking about her music and clothes as art :3.

I didn't want to but in to the conversation or anything but I seriously disagree with her about everything and I find it hilarious when she askes me how to do shit in MS PAINT. Whatever happened to the almighty traditional media? I use photoshop bitch!

Also I discovered I have a new crowd D: I hang out with the gay people now. I loves them X3 Nelson is awesome! and I always loved his friend with the bluexpink spiked hair but due to his job he had to cut it off ;A;}

I have no life.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 23:42:30 GMT

_{I am almost done sewing my lolita dress! it's beautiful!. It's everything I ever wanted in a lolita dress and it was really fun to make too. I'll be posting progress photos of the dress, headbow and wrist cuffs later this week when I get out of classes early (I still need to hem the top of the dress,make bows, waist ties, add pearls,etc!) I still a few things to do with the head bow. Making this dress was really fun, I am currently planning about two more dresses to make, one for my birthday since I just learned my big bro and his gf are taking me to eat Red Lobster!. I wish Lijah can come too ;A;.

Speaking of Lijah, he got a hair cut XD it's sooo cute <3! I told him I liked his hair better cut short so he cut it for when I see him in 2 weeks :) I am so excited! I have a lot of my cosplay work done, paid for my badge, got my ride planned out. All I need to do is go to Target and get shorts and socks and start packing things!

P.S. For some reason I am currently addicted to listening to "Let Me Go" by 3 doors down. I love this song!}

Sewing Woes..

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 22:30:03 GMT

_{I bought this fabric to make a dress awhile ago but ended up making a skirt instead. Since then I have worn the skirt on three different outings and recently I wanted to finish the dress I started except I messed up on the bodice. No problem right? buy more fabric! so I did and I took it home and as I am preparing to sew the bodice to the skirt I notice something incredibly odd.

One is darker than the other. I know I bought the exact same fabric since Hobby Lobby's selection isn't that big and it was in the same area. I figure it was because I must have washed the skirt when it was a skirt and so I proceeded to wash the fabric some of the dye has come out in the sink but not enough! so I machine washed it and it still looks odd to me! UGH.

I am tempted to wash them in the sink again and ring it out but I really don't remember ringing out the skirt when I washed it. Just hanging it on the railing. Woe is me ;A;}

Opps I forgot to post these

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 13:05:31 GMT

_{For the past week my friend has been bringing Blazblue to school! ;A; I wanted to play!! but I am always in class or having to leave. But I got to see others play <3 the game graphics weren't what I thought they would be but it still looks okay I guess. I really want to play ;A; maybe next time. I also really want to cosplay Litchi Faye Ling and Taokaka!!!!!!

<3<3<3

I wanted to do Taokaka first but I can't get Litchi out of my head now! Boobie Lady!! ;A;
Thought I have no idea where I am going to get extensions THAT long. That wig is going to be totally heavy!! and with the mini panda plush on top and nothing to balance it out on the other side! but I still want it lol.
I found their reference images and profiles that have their attacks and specials listed and what buttons to push. I should study this and then play the guys so I don't look like a total noob XD.

Also I think I won't get the pink dress after all. I tried the mint one with my pink wig and it's so cute! but the style I want it in is sort of killing my wig and I need it for Simca so I might go without a wig and use my own hair, we'll see. Only 2 more weeks for AUSA. I will be spending sun up to sun down today sewing. I really feel like I am behind on everything because school takes so much out of me.}

UGH >o< DO WANT!

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 19:40:44 GMT

_{I want it.

I didn't want it at first because I thought it was too bright and it wouldn't fit in with daily wear but as AUSA comes near I am thinking about doing deco lolita for times I am not in cosplay. It will give me a reason to wear my mint dress. But there are a few problems. I don't own socks to wear with it :/. I do however, have pink x white striped socks >:O ugh! I should have bought the pink jsk! so I could have worn it with my pink x white socks and pink wig! I feel retarded now.
Part of me wants to either sell my mint jsk or attempt to trade for the pink one but idk I get attached to my clothes after they are mine XD I never look to resell anything unless I know in my heart it will never be used again. I am so tempted to buy this dress! ugh!!!! even if I can't get it for AUSA it would be cute for Katsucon :/.

I really wish I could buy it! I would splurge but I didn't know I was $5O short on the hotel money (mom is giving me the difference!). Ugh.

I am getting some money!!! :) my friend has been showing his girlfriend my cosplay photos and she loved my Yako hairclips and bow and ask him to ask me if I would make them for her. So I have something towards my goal! apparently me and her have VERY similar taste. I really want to meet her! she will be cosplaying Yako at Otakon and wants him to go as Neuro. I really want to see them do that cosplay!! so Otakon might be back on my list! <3
I am also thinking about putting something on ebay and coscom.

I think I am getting a little too addicted with this print. I still want it in black but at the moment I have given up on it. PINK IS THE NEW BLACK!

Today was Fall Festival, HOLY CRAP my school is like or worst than a convention during these festivals! there are vendors and free food and gaming and it's just great but my neck has been causing me so much pain lately that I only stayed to watch them play video games and left. I wore loli though :D my teacher said I was all set for the festival! whoot.}

Let's talk about race

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 21:16:43 GMT

_{My least favorite subject.

I really hate it when people find the need to CONSTANTLY REMIND ME WHAT I AM. I am mixed (black,white,american indian and asian) and yet people feel the need to ride me on the fact that I am black. I already know this, my mother is black and I see her every day. I know my races and I don't do around gloating that I am this or that, people ask me, but I am getting so fucking sick a tired of a few people riding on me about being black out of everything.

I have this friend. He is an ass but he says out of everyone he hates me the least. We have class together and talk outside of class and I don't hate him the least bit but it annoys me when he constantly goes "YOUR A BLACK PERSON". He told me he'd never sleep with me because I am black dispite the fact that I am hot which I am glad he feels this way cause he isn't my type either and the though of that makes me want to vomit as I type this. Today I was talking and he makes a comment about me and add (opps but your black!) at the end the sentence (directed to me since I was the only one there at the time that is mixed) and it's like UEDFGHJDSKFG I get it! I know it! I knew it all my life, must I have to hear it every single day????????

Another thing that pisses me off is when the asian kids at my school have to constantly remind people that THEY are asian. This one guy was playing the piano and he didn't look like he could play so I asked him if he was really playing that from memory and he goes "Yeah I am asian!" wtf does that have to do with anything? The other asian guy add that to ALL of his sentences. Cheeko couldn't read something so the guy goes "I CAN READ IT CAUSE I AM ASIAN AND I HAVE SMALL EYES!" I need to ask him why he says that after all his sentences. He'll also go "THAT IS RACIST IS IT CAUSE I AM ASIAN" everytime someone says something >_>. I really hate people like that.

We can see you. We know what you are. You don't have to remind us.

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As far as life post is concerned my wisdom tooth is driving me insane and I am going to get it removed soon. On top of that I am stressed with sewing for AUSA! and I still need to buy shit from Target + ask my dad if he will give me the money I am missing for the hotel ;A; (I saved a lot but I need to eat!. I have been using my card a bit ;A; I am sure I don't have all the money for the hotel but I was already a few bucks short anyways! He'll be here tomorrow night so I can ask him!!

Also, everyone is so into deers now it makes me want something! I really want this adorable fabric from etsy for my birthday so I can make a dress with it!

Tomorrow is Fall Festival ;A; I sort of want to stay for an hour and then leave cause I have to do stuff (like washing my hair with dish washing liquid because of a accident! oh joy!)

***EDIT: A few months ago I had a dream that my school taught a ghost hunting class but I when I woke up I laughed about it never happening....GUESS WHAT

THEY JUST OPENED A GHOST HUNTING CLASS!
My dreams usually always happen this way but since I think they are dreams I never pay attention to them until something really happens. It's so cool they go to haunted locations and everything!!!!! <333333333333 I love you ACC but I doubt my Grandpa would want to pay for me to learn about Ghost Hunting.}

Blair wig progress

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 21:40:44 GMT

_{Cut and styled myself, the kitty ears are made of foam and felt with clippings from the actual wig after I cut the side hair. The pink tuffs of hair are made from clippings off my Simca wig, idk I thought it was a cute effect lol.
The actual cosplay itself is almost complete but I am getting to tired to work on it and I have mega cramps.

BTW: I TACKLED THE HAT TODAY! but I need some parental help it's sitting in the closet til then lol.}

I hate people. Seriously.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 20:11:43 GMT

_{So I am talking to my friend on aim when I get up for no longer than 3 minutes to look for something in the bathroom and to pee while I am there, when my friend from school writes these (btw none of these are me):
(12:58:00 PM): Me~"HI Jenn,whats up"
(12:58:22 PM): you"nothin,ignorin VA,what about u" (his nickname)
(12:59:01 PM): Me~"chillin like a top notch villian"
(12:59:29 PM): You~"really, me 2"
(1:01:43 PM): did I miss something

um...can a girl take a piss without you getting offended that I am not replying to you? Geeesh

On an unrelated topic I'm trying out new eye makeup :) I really hate my eyes sometimes so I try to use make up and it makes it worst D: but I guess I like this get up. I am going out tomorrow to get some other eye shadows :)

and and and MY SIMCA WIG CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY~!. I know my mail man was upset when he had to get out the car and walk up our drive way for me to sign the slip. But yay :D it's awesome and beautiful I will totally be buying from this site again~!}

The best cure for depression is..

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:40:36 GMT

_{Hanging out with some of my classmates <3333

For some reason every time I complain about wanting to do something we end up doing it. Like my teacher hears me or something. I miss the first week of school where we created stuff and discussed it with my classmates it was hilarious. Today we looked at the Rolling Stone magazine and picked articles we liked and talked about why we like them. On one of them was a older gentlemen and my classmate goes "I like how he's old" LMFAO WTF XD to which I squeal "YAY OLD PEOPLE!" at one point I was laughing so hard I started crying.

Before that my friend and I were walking to class and our classmates comes out of the locker area screaming "RON'S GOT HIMSELF A HOWLER" in an english Harry Potter accent. It was so random I loled. He kept saying Harry Potter quotes in class too.

Hanging out with people in the wireless room is super fun too! I hung out with Nelson and guy I forgot his name but I tease him saying I hate him (I really don't and he knows this but it's fun to say it lol.) They introduced me to Mello Yello soda because I never had it before and apparently it's like an organism in your mouth so I bought some with Nelson. It's good but not super amazing, still I liked it. I love talking to Nelson he reminds me of someone I lost connection with a long time ago :/

That was pretty much my day. That and drawing something really pretty for my class project and planning an outfit to wear for Anime Meeting on Friday. Mine is a surprise but not really a surprise and I doubt I will bring my prop just because I already have to carry my huge art portfolio. But I might and just ditch my laptop for a day.

I'll figure it out.}

ACCOMPLISHED MODE!

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 17:52:17 GMT

_{I registered for spring classes today~! I feel so accomplished. But FUCK next semester is going to be hell some of my classes are BACK TO BACK with like 5-10 mins to spare!. Also I have to take summer classes (probably like 3-4 classes over the summer) but I wanted to anyways.
On to the good stuff! next semester I will be taking:

Design Applications 2
Graphic Design 2
Photography 1
Computer Graphics 2
Illustration 1 (<3333333333)
English

Working hard Jenn is working hard.

This week has been meh for me. I am beyond exhausted and I have been sleeping way to early :/ Idk why I get so tired all of a sudden and because I am not my usual happy self my friend thinks its all his fault and things I hate him and don't want to be his friend. No I am just fucking tired and I really don't feel like talking to people lately. I'm also slightly borderline melancholic.}

Lolita + Health day + My new BFF

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 19:20:27 GMT

_{FINALLY THIS WEEK IS OVER!
I have been really stressed out this week. I had a project due today so the only thing on my mind was finishing it and not getting scolded by my teacher. But I was also really distracted this week and I really don't think I was mentally anywhere, I just wanted to get out of class as soon as it was possible to escape. But this week wasn't really bad it was actually fun, I guess and best of all I got lolita clothes!!

I TASTED MY FIRST MACAROON THIS WEEK!. I now know why there is a print called "Dreaming Macaroon" because that night I dreamt I was in Chapel Hill and I found a bakery. I poked my head inside with hopes and finding macaroons and I did! But I got mine really from the Grocery store I almost didn't want to go to. They are so good! and cute! I love the raspberry one the most! sadly I got the last set :/ I hope they plan to sell more!!!!! they are really addictive~! <3

My BODYLINE order came on Monday (I think) even though the site said I would get it the day after. I was really happy!! my black bow is my favorite accessory ever! it's so cute! ugh! I believe I wore it the day after it arrive just because it's so cute. Here's my first loot:

Bunny blouse (there are bunny ears attached to the back), black bow and black strawberry bow.
Surprising I don't care too much for the strawberry one which is the one I wanted the most LOL.
On Monday BODYLINE on eBay sent me an e-mail stating the black verison of the candy dress was sold out so I bought the mint one instead and it arrived on Wednesday just in time for Health Day at our school. I wasn't planning on wearing Lolita at all this week but I was told that many people from the club would be dressed up and Laura even said she was going to dress up so I showed up all dressed in lolita to find that I WAS THE ONLY ONE!. Go figure.

But it wasn't bad people at my school don't care what people wear so I feel more comfortable showing up in strange clothes and not getting hassled for it. Most people who saw me just told me I looked nice or that I was very pretty XD it was awkward because I wore my boots and the people complimenting me were small older women lol!.

The only thing that really pissed me off about Health Day was the fact that we pulled a display out of our asses. Seriously Health Day was mentioned once and because the President was busy we haven't had any meetings so Laura runs in like "lol Health Day is tomorrow and we have nothing! someone need to go out and get supplies". I volunteered since the other officers backed out and because I really wanted to see the club actually go places. So I went to the Asian Food Market which turned out to be a big waste of time. The lady working there was really difficult to get information out of. All she said was "I guess these things are healthy, I don't really know, but you can read the back labels" She really didn't seem like she wanted to help me at all until the very end of our visit. What pisses me off the most is the the day of Health Day some more people went to get more supplies and the girl was extremely helpful to them. So Laura comes back like "wtf Jenn she wasn't anything like you said." Thanks a lot lady. Don't expect me to ask you for shit next time. When I got home there was a pretty package from DHL with this inside:

So cute~! <333333

Health Day was still pretty fun even with out last minute event planning. We had laptops playing FLCL and another playing Marital Arts video. Behind us was DDR! so we even had music!. My job was stand infront of the booth and be the clubs Mascot Girl! lol. Apparently I quite popular because Charles said a woman was talking to him about me at his job (he works at the school as a tutor.) She described me as "the girl wearing the little girl's dress" LOL. Here's what I really wore:

I had to pair the jsk with black because I don't have cute white socks lol, I also wore boots but they aren't pictured here because after all day of wearing them they made my feet sore and I wasn't dare putting them back on. The other picture was to show the bow but I made a weird face instead :/.

I got Cheeko to take some pictures of us during Health Day but only when it managed to die down. The crowd was so heavy it was hard for anyone to move around! I had to leave at 11 for class and came back around 12:35 and there was still a crowd of people but not as big as around 10-11:

Sorry the first picture is kind of weird! we weren't ready! and the booth isn't as full as it was. Everyone ate our freebies and by this point we had turned the videos off and just had DDR.
Nick and I were trying to put on our Asian faces but failed! I discovered last year were both of the same Indian blood, he's my heritage cousin! The other photo is GINGER ROOT! it smelled really good XD

Nick our club president and me the mascot girl!. Some one actually asked me why I wasn't wearing cat ears. I felt like a bitch telling them lolita and cat ears don't mix. I might show up in non lolita and cat ears (but not during classes!! just for fun with friends) and shock everyone and also Charles who doesn't hang out with me because my clothes "creep him out." He pretty much said that while he was waiting for my ride with me. He said he doesn't come to the club room because we dress like weridos but everyone wears normal clothing (hell even the same damn KH SHIRTS TWICE IN A WEEK!) except me D:.

During the event me and another girl (who CONSTANTLY talks about her bf and how he's going to Iraq next month for a year and how much money he spends on her) were making fun of this guy with pretty eyes lol. We kept calling him "Mr. Pretty Eyes" and he kept blushing and hiding. Before that I really disliked this guy because he was so loud for no reason. Everyone kept calling him douche bag so the first time I really meet him I shouted "HI DOUCHE BAG!, I'M JENN!". It was fun and we started a trend of calling him Mr. Pretty Eyes but I think it back fired on me because today he used a line on me. UDFHSJKLFGVJHBFCNG I hate when guys use pick up lines. It's so corny. I walked in this morning saying "HI MR. PRETTY EYES!" and he goes "you know there are more people in this room with pretty eyes" and I go "yeah? who?" and he's like "you."
Later he told his friend he liked me because she ran up to me and told me he wanted to ask me out. I had to tell him infront of everyone I had a boyfriend and he got mad at his friend saying he already knew I was taken and that she shouldn't have done that.

There is another guy in the room who is probably also crushing on me because the entire time he is in the room he is STARING DIRECTLY AT ME! it's kind of creepy... he is new and one of Cheeko's friends and since the first day he has joined us he has watched me from across the room ugh. I hate it when guys crush on me. It feels so awkward sometimes.
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OH! before I end this, check out my new best bud!

This stray cat has been spotted in the front and back yard of my house or weeks. Today he finally came over and let me pet him <33. He kept rubbing himself on my boots and meowing, he's was so cute! so naturally I took his picture repeatedly

He even followed me right to my front door. I really wish I could have kept him but my parents hate cats and I have two dogs :/ oh well. I named him "Boots" due to the fact that he has four white paws (I guess "Socks" works too but I was wearing boots at the time).

Hmmm this entry..

NEEDS MOAR CAT!

HA HA HA!

P.S. I think my entries are more exciting with pictures, I'll try to turn this into a picture journal}

Seriously?

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 18:06:11 GMT

_{I broke my school bag today. Or rather mom did by putting a curse on it.
The last thing she said to me was "That bag is gonna break soon" and it was perfectly fine all day til I saw her and the strap snapped...

I could sew it but I really don't think the seams will hold much :/ and I don't have any other bags this size for my laptop. I mean I have a laptop bag but it's so bulky it's heavy and it's annoying to carry. I kind of wish I had bought a mini laptop. There so cute and easy to carry rather than mine =A=; urfhn

Back to bag shopping......
I can't wait til Thursday ;A;}

I AM SO BLOWN!

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 22:39:20 GMT

_{I got online this morning at school and I found an e-mail from Bodyline on ebay. THE DRESS WAS SOLD OUT! So they gave me a full refund :/. I was so blown. I really wanted this dress in black but eh not much I can do. So I browsed around Bodyline for a bit. I was kind of pissed that I bought my stuff before the "Mr. Yan furious sale" and the free shipping on orders over $20 so I took advantage of both and bought the mint jsk version of the candy dress (only $25 :D yay~! cheaper than the black one). I hate how light blue looks on me and the pink version was too candy cane looking. I like the mint jsk though, it's cute I guess but I seriously have NOTHING in mint!. I'm going shopping after school tomorrow to attempt to find shoes ;A;. I am going to be making a headbow and probably picking up some mint ribbon and lace to sew onto some plain white socks (since I can't find anything I like online) Thanks Katie for the ideas!! <3 XD I might make wristcuffs too since I love them XD I can't wait to make some for my polkadot dress but SCHOOL IS KILLING ME! I have something to do every day this week XD ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

I was so blown about the dress cause I bought the black headbow with the intent of pairing it with the black dress :/ rofl.

Anyways I came home to find my Bodyline package had come~! I love it!!!! <333 the blouse fits perfectly (cept I am going to alter the sleeves because I think they are too big). I looooove the head bows~! omg ;A; they are sort of wrinkled but I love them!!!

Sorry no photos this post!! I have an English paper and then maybe an officers meeting for Anime club then sleep! I'll do a photo post on Thursday or Friday when I get my dress ^_^

P.S. I have bad luck with light. I have no light in my room and my lamp bulb died and then this new one doesn't light shit. I hate dim light. It pisses me off so much lol.}

WHAT THE FUCK.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 20:39:17 GMT

_{I HATE relying on my brother to do shit for me.

I'm sitting here starving so he goes to make a Mc Donalds run. Not only does he take FOREVER to come back but he gets the wrong shit! How does a 5 piece chicken nugget meal turn into a quarter ponder cheese burger?. To top it off everyone starts bitching at me for not scraping the cheese off. I am sick of mc donalds hamburgers and it's not what I wanted it's not my damn fault he's too brainless to check the orders before speeding off.}

lol, I spent way to much money last night + other shenanigans

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 22:17:32 GMT

_{Yesterday I discovered my money had finally made it to my new paypal account <3. So I did some shopping!

I purchased 40 Magic the Gathering cards for $20 for Elijah as a present ( I thought it was a pretty good deal and he's been wanting these cards so badly + he's getting me a present too! but I won't get mine til AUSA most likely \^o^/ ). Then I went ahead and purchased a few lolita goodies for myself that I have been eyeing!! I also got a 40" light pink wig for my Simca cosplay~! I'm hoping to finish that cosplay this weekend but I have about 3 homework assignments I need to get done! ugh!!. Anywho on to what I am currently waiting for!

I finally got this head bow to match this skirt!!!:
YUSH I've been wanting it since it came out but I didn't want to drop $26 for a bow that only cost $6. If I was going to buy it I wanted to buy a few more items as well. Thought I didn't pick up the pink one :/ I figure I'll get it sometime after AUSA if it's meant to be.

Simple black head bow! I don't know why but I really love this bow! I love Gothic Lolita for the winter months so I am sort of been eyeing Gothic Lolita stuff and I'm kind of tempted to make a Gothic Lolita skirt. Also tempted to buy black Rocking Horse Shoes!! ugh. I want a pair so badly! most likely again after AUSA (I don't want to spend all my money before I even go to con).

Bunny blouse! in off white not the black one!. I noticed I have 0 lolita blouses so I bought this to wear with a jsk I am currently sewing for my dinner date @ AUSA~!. I'm making a polkadot bunny jsk and this blouse has bunny ears! <3333. I honestly didn't expect to find one with Bodyline so I'm happy they made one~!. I'll post my crappy doodle of what the dress will look like in another post once I have some bits of the dress completed.

And lastly, instead of working on my project last night that I had to present this morning. I was on ebay stalking an auction for this:

The dress I wanted so badly after seeing it worn but was too poor to afford it!!!!!!!!! they have it on the site but it said "Sold Out" so I checked their eBay store and they had it. I was too nervous about someone outbidding me but no one even bothered! I am happy! I'm planning on wearing it on my birthday! (in Decemeber, I bought it early because I doubt it will be around during that time of year).

I am ordering the socks too! but I didn't want to spend too much in one night. I plan to get two other pairs of socks I liked too but I need to transfer money again ^__^; (no I'm not broke lol I just got nervous and put the rest back in my bank account.)

I can't wait! thought I won't be home by the time the arrive (I have class even though I get out of class early I sometimes end up staying til 2-3). I e-mailed DHL to ask them if I could leave a signed note attached to my door and they said it would be fine. Yay!

Other shenanigans. Errr well. I was invited to a Halloween party tomorrow but I declined. Idk I sort of dislike parties with people I don't know which is retarded because people I do know are going to be there but eh idk. I don't hang out with my school friends at all really (except Laura because I feel like out of everyone we have the most in common but even then sometimes I feel like an outsider). I'm the lone wolf who sits in the corner who gets bad glances for never hanging out with anyone but I like just spending my weekends alone resting + I am using the fact that I have homework as an excuse not to go.
But I may go to the amusement park trip. I forgot what it's called but it's about an hour or something away and there having this Halloween thing like Six Flags does. It sounds like a lot of fun and I love amusement parks!! I might go but the plan is still up in the air. Idk

I'll end this with recent cute art:

I drew it because I have eaten a bag of candy corn every school day since October 1st. Which is probably the cause of my tummy being upset now. I know people say "Damn she is always sick!" but it's true. We have way too many viruses going around the campus this time of year. I keep getting these bad headaches and for the past two nights have suffered from awful stomach aches. I can't eat or drink without feeling like I can't hold it down. Stupid germ college!}

Road Trip + Cosplay Progress

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 22:57:49 GMT

_{So today mom and I decided to take a road trip to find Chapel Hill. We weren't really looking for anything it's just beats sitting in the house all day and we want to learn our way around our area so we traveled down this really long country road passing cows,horses,llamas,farms etc for 30 mins until we found Chapel Hill. It was amazing! the roads after awhile looked like Maryland and idk I was really in love with it (wtf rofl) I can't really explain it without rambling but I loved it!!!!! and apparently my Graphic Design teacher lives there cause I saw here walking o_O;. It was funny because mom and me joked about it being like New York (dispite the surrounding area being so OTT country) so we were both shocked to see bus stations and people walking around and buildings.

It was mostly college kids however since UNC is over there. I am actually considering going to school there after ACC *A* it's so beautiful! <3333 Screw going back north lol.

We didn't find anything super interesting and it was raining so we went home after exploring a shop.

Of course on the way back I had to go to Hobby Lobby. I am not buying a lolita dress anymore but am going to be making one instead. I drew it out but it's really crappy looking lol I drew it to be cute and give me an idea of what I want to make and the pencil I was using is uber shitty. I'll post it in another entry though. I needed more lace so I bought some for the bottom of the dress and a smaller kind I want to use for something else and ribbon for my wrist cuffs *w*. Also picked up the fabric for my Simca dress! whoot $1.99!!. I was actually really tired when I got home but I hate sleeping during the day so I worked on Simca for a little bit. I got done the top and bottom of the dress before I figured it it's time for quits and soup. Progress below:

The top of the dress and the sailor collar. Okay so Hobby Lobby has a small variety of stuff to work with (they didn't have anymore taffeta so I couldn't make my boot covers :/) so I got this ribbon for the bottom part of my dress. Is it too bright? D:

Gonna end this now cause I feel like I just rambled and because my soup is getting cold.

OUT! better progress and photo post this weekend~!}

SAY WHAT NOW!?

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 23:23:51 GMT

_{Mom's white co-worker at her old job just called her to say "I have been treated like a nigger all day".

Yeah. That's real classy.}

RAWR! HEADACHES!

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 14:17:12 GMT

_{So I think I am sick again or something with a virus. I have been getting such bad headaches since last week. Yesterday was the worst since it also started making my eyes really sore. Pain killers aren't working either since I took one at 4am and went back to bed only to wake up and have them start again. What's wrong with me!!!

I am going back to bed!

P.S. I emptied my old paypal account out XD I bought this with it:

I hope it's cuter in person XD I got it really cheap and there was only a few in the shop left after like a day. If I don't like it I'll sell it for the same price I paid most likely. But I really want a cute strawberry bag ;A;}

Life post

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 13:31:41 GMT

_{Way too much has happened in the past 3 days, heres a rundown:

I didn't want to go to school on Friday. Even though I only had one class I still didn't feel like being there. I couldn't sleep the night before and mom was off on Friday so I asked her if she would stay around the school,let me present my project and then leave. So we get to my school and I run into the girl I have been wanting to talk to about creepy guy. He asked her out too and then I learned he has a 15 year old daughter >__________________>. We both were kind of wtf why do you want to date someone 5 years older than your own child! ugh but we also determined he's probably divorced.
Anyways when he came into the classroom mom took him outside and talked to him. He lied to her saying he never touched my waist but my shoulder >_> lying bitch. Mom didn't believe him and told him no never look at me, touch me, or talk to me or else she'll send the police on him for harassment. She wanted to handle the issue herself because security had questioned me and my friend but never the guy. I am a little worried because the person we both are suppose to be talking to is very "fair" and if he goes in saying he touched my shoulder and I go in saying the waist who is she really going to believe :/
I left class early because I really didn't want to be there anymore and went home with mom.

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I got my Pell Grant Check! we spent all morning setting up a bank account for online shopping and then spending some cash. I think I spent $300 on art supplies for school and some fabric and cosplay stuff. I also needed a new wallet. My old Chibi Maru one is really cute but I am sort of tired of looking at it and I wanted something more adult like (I got this long pink one so I can put stickers on it >_> sooooo adult. Sad part is mom was like "you got that so you can decorate it" >_> rofl.)

I got home and opened a new paypal account and then attempted to transfer some money to that account and got pissed because I now have to wait 3-5 days!!! UGH I wanna shop noooooooow! gonna buy some lolita and then some Magic cards for Lijah XD 40 cards for $20!!! I dunno it sounds cheap to me XD. The rest is going to Anime USA and dinner at AUSA~! we finally have money to go to a restaurant and eat a good meal! I'm excited because I am making him dress up to match my lolita dress \^o^/. It makes me emo to see cute girls dresses up with their boyfriends so I am happy to do the same with mine soon~! I just pray the dress comes in time >_> I shall be stalking my e-mail all week for that notice that the funds have transferred because that is the first thing I am buying.

I haven't chosen what to do for a headpiece though :/ there is this really cute plastic headband from Angelic Pretty I really really want! but you can't make orders from the Japanese site and then it's not on the English one. I might make a post on the sales community for it but idk kinda nervous about buying from people now a days >_>; ugh. I am thinking about making one but idk. When I know the dress is on it's way I'll start planning accessories.

Oh! another awesome thing! I am getting my hair dyed again. My brother's girlfriend dyes her hair all the time and my mom just got a new job at Sally's! mom says she want to wait at least 2 weeks before she starts buying the supplies but my brother's gf seems really excited to do my hair <3. I want to dye it all strawberry blonde ---> . Since me and Elijah are doing a couple outfit he pointed out that we won't be matching if I dye my hair ;A; (since way to many people say we look alike >_> even before we dated Matt told me I looked like him). But he's planning on cutting his hair (I think he looks cuter to me with short hair) before AUSA anyways XD. I'm so happy.

My brother and his gf are actually.......CUTE. I hung out with them Saturday night and we all when out and ate lunch on Sunday and I didn't feel grossed out or annoyed or anything >_> he acts normal with her instead of trying to be a big shot. Most times I hide in my room when his ex would come over but I actually feel comfy when she is here LOL that makes no sense. Whatever.

That's pretty much it. I'd talk about cosplay but that's another story...

Time to go back to killing time til Wednesday >o>}

I'm offically happy <3

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:13:48 GMT

_{So much good news.

For starters, I finally took my Sociology exam. I couldn't take it during my 2 hour and 40 min break yesterday so I had to take it during my 1 hour a 30 minute break. I feel really confident exam wise thought the surprise essay at the end I know I failed. I knew the test was multiple choice so I never prepared for a written section >_>; I wrote down anything because at that point I wanted to get the hell out of there and eat something.

During Sociology another security guard pulled me out of class to do a follow up report. It scared me at first because he took me across the hall to sit in a dark room (he turned on the lights though lol) and made me sit in the door way where people could see me. He just asked me to repeat what I said yesterday since he hasn't seen the first report himself. After wards class was pretty fun I guess :x my friend Rob told me I was brave for speaking to security but it's their jobs to protect us against these things and they all told me it's a form of harassment and if he talks to me again or does anything out of the way he cane be kicked out of school so I feel perfectly safe.

After school I got my package from Onlywig~! I seriously sat on my bed with the blinds open stalking the mailman. I saw him slip a brown paper bag in the box and I almost screamed. The wig they sent this time is the correct one~! dark purple and long~! (I was scared it was gonna come short lol). The label this time was written as if the person writing it was furious >_> I'd take pictures of the label,wig and styled wig over the weekend. I am way too busy at the moment and should NOT be on LJ >_>.

The other happy thing is that I finally got my Pell Grant Check <3 (well I have to pick it up tomorrow after class) holy shit. Though half is going to bills and a new professional portfolio bag <3 I am still getting a large sum for AUSA and my own personal needs. I might finally buy something I have wanted since I was 15! (<---LOL dreams do come true).

Well that's all I am way too happy! but now I must kill the happiness and finish my project for Feedback day tomorrow ;A;}

Ugh. This semester sucks >_>;

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 22:08:23 GMT

_{Today I had to report my stalker for touching me. I am sure I mentioned this before. About how this 30 year old guy in 3 of my classes asked me to be his girlfriend one day. Well today I was setting up my area to draw the still life when he comes over and grabs my waist. He asked me when the assignment in another class is due and I snapped telling him never to touch me again. He then went to my friend (who isn't in this class but our other 2) and told him that I flipped out on him. My friend knows I have been having issues with this guy and he also gets questioned a lot by the guy because the guy gets really annoyed and jealous when we talk because he thinks were dating even though VA has a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend.

Today I went to security and reported him. This makes me second report so they are planning to send me to the Dean of Students and have me talk with her and then have him talk to me. He could be thrown out of school and have a order against him where he can't be anywhere near me.

I really hate being around this guy. When I walk into the room in the morning he starts to smile and looks me up and down like a piece of meat. When I am talking to VA he comes up behind me and stares at us or like that time I was talking to Colleen and he stood behind her staring at me for a good 5 minutes. Not to mention he stays in my conversations. I feel really unpleasant around him...

Good thing about today is I got tons of music from Colleen XD I raped her iPod lol I'll probably end up raping Cheeko's next >_>.}