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WHAT THE FUCK.
Oct. 18th, 2009 | 01:30 pm
mood: 
bitchy
I HATE relying on my brother to do shit for me.
I'm sitting here starving so he goes to make a Mc Donalds run. Not only does he take FOREVER to come back but he gets the wrong shit! How does a 5 piece chicken nugget meal turn into a quarter ponder cheese burger?. To top it off everyone starts bitching at me for not scraping the cheese off. I am sick of mc donalds hamburgers and it's not what I wanted it's not my damn fault he's too brainless to check the orders before speeding off.
I'm sitting here starving so he goes to make a Mc Donalds run. Not only does he take FOREVER to come back but he gets the wrong shit! How does a 5 piece chicken nugget meal turn into a quarter ponder cheese burger?. To top it off everyone starts bitching at me for not scraping the cheese off. I am sick of mc donalds hamburgers and it's not what I wanted it's not my damn fault he's too brainless to check the orders before speeding off.
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Lol english and rants.
Sep. 8th, 2009 | 12:08 pm
mood: 
busy
Last night I had my first bad dream in years. I dreamt my brother killed me by cutting my throat. I was seriously too scared to move or even wake up it felt so real. Like he was some killer and I pissed him off and I ran and tried to lock myself in the bathroom but I felt so stuck in the bathroom that I wanted to get out of it and when I opened the door he pushed himself in and killed me. >_> Not cool man, not cool.
So......I love my English teacher!. Guy is seriously the coolest teacher I have ever. Today he read us a sentence and one girl replied "That's a great sentence" and he snapped "YOU BET YOUR ASS IT IS!" <333333 I love english. I also hate english. I dunno I love the class but I think we go way off topic too many times...we barely even get any work in. Like he'll show us how to write papers and we'll give him a topic. Then we will press more on the topic than writing the paper itself. Maybe I am just slow. But I learned more about current events and such than any actual english stuff ;A;. WE DID WORK THOUGH! he gave us this amusing worksheet:
LOL at the last sentence.
Rest of the day went by swell. This guy I know reminds me so much of my friend Matt they talk alike,do the same activities,and carry around similar items. I nicknamed him Matt but someone thought I said "Poodle" so it turned into Poodle. LOL wtf XD it's kind of funny and cute so all the girls call him Poodle now.
I hate to rant in my lj now. I dunno if its making me feel better or worst anymore lol. But I am just gonna toss out their how people contradict themselves all the time.
People keep bitching about the noise level in the wireless room at school. YET PEOPLE PLAY THEIR MUSIC OUT LOUD AND WON'T USE HEADPHONES. I mean really how obnoxious can you get? shoving your music in other people's ears. Someone I know constantly complains about people turning their music down then plays KINGDOM HEARTS MUSIC out loud (she JUST discovered Kingdom Hearts and is literally riding it's ass. We barely speak anymore cause she is too busy watching Carmell Dansen on her laptop OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.) Then she starts singing along. Which pissed me off again because another guy came in the room to do the same exact thing except way louder. Everyone just sort of looked at him like dude GTFO. It's not room shaking loud but still. HEADPHONES. USE THEM. I get kind of annoyed when people play music out loud like that. They should really make a sign :/ seriously.
Okay rant over.
Enjoy some recent pics:
I covered my notebook in duct tape because I used this last semester and wrote my old class on it ;A;. I like it in duct tape <3
I love my doggie <3 Bailey is such a sweetie~
So......I love my English teacher!. Guy is seriously the coolest teacher I have ever. Today he read us a sentence and one girl replied "That's a great sentence" and he snapped "YOU BET YOUR ASS IT IS!" <333333 I love english. I also hate english. I dunno I love the class but I think we go way off topic too many times...we barely even get any work in. Like he'll show us how to write papers and we'll give him a topic. Then we will press more on the topic than writing the paper itself. Maybe I am just slow. But I learned more about current events and such than any actual english stuff ;A;. WE DID WORK THOUGH! he gave us this amusing worksheet:
LOL at the last sentence.
Rest of the day went by swell. This guy I know reminds me so much of my friend Matt they talk alike,do the same activities,and carry around similar items. I nicknamed him Matt but someone thought I said "Poodle" so it turned into Poodle. LOL wtf XD it's kind of funny and cute so all the girls call him Poodle now.
I hate to rant in my lj now. I dunno if its making me feel better or worst anymore lol. But I am just gonna toss out their how people contradict themselves all the time.
People keep bitching about the noise level in the wireless room at school. YET PEOPLE PLAY THEIR MUSIC OUT LOUD AND WON'T USE HEADPHONES. I mean really how obnoxious can you get? shoving your music in other people's ears. Someone I know constantly complains about people turning their music down then plays KINGDOM HEARTS MUSIC out loud (she JUST discovered Kingdom Hearts and is literally riding it's ass. We barely speak anymore cause she is too busy watching Carmell Dansen on her laptop OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.) Then she starts singing along. Which pissed me off again because another guy came in the room to do the same exact thing except way louder. Everyone just sort of looked at him like dude GTFO. It's not room shaking loud but still. HEADPHONES. USE THEM. I get kind of annoyed when people play music out loud like that. They should really make a sign :/ seriously.
Okay rant over.
Enjoy some recent pics:
I covered my notebook in duct tape because I used this last semester and wrote my old class on it ;A;. I like it in duct tape <3
I love my doggie <3 Bailey is such a sweetie~
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My head feels like it's gonna explode
Aug. 27th, 2009 | 03:21 pm
mood: bitchy
Why must I be surrounded by idiots.
My brother went to the store and bought drinks and milk and cookies (the kind that you just toss in the oven) AND LEFT THEM OUT ON THE COUNTER. I didn't see them for like an hour later. WTF. I swear he can't walk and think at the same time.
It's like he expected me to put them away. And if I don't I'd get bitched at later for it.
I seriously wish I wasn't so stressed out and bitchy all the time. But I can't help it. Right when things are going good something just flips it over for me. That and my period. It's late because I have been so stressed out and then I got sick. But I get cramps every morning and now my knees hurt when I climb the stairs/bend them wtf. Hurry up period, hurry up.
Highlights of this week!
-I sold my green wig
-I got paid to make armbands for a friend (he gave me more than I asked just because <3333)
-I finished one of the chibis for NYAF (my friend loved it!!!)
- And I got to listen to Breaking Benjamin's new single "I will not bow" LOVE IT~!
I really need to make a non rageful entry but yeah. I just don't feel it. I need to lay down.
My brother went to the store and bought drinks and milk and cookies (the kind that you just toss in the oven) AND LEFT THEM OUT ON THE COUNTER. I didn't see them for like an hour later. WTF. I swear he can't walk and think at the same time.
It's like he expected me to put them away. And if I don't I'd get bitched at later for it.
I seriously wish I wasn't so stressed out and bitchy all the time. But I can't help it. Right when things are going good something just flips it over for me. That and my period. It's late because I have been so stressed out and then I got sick. But I get cramps every morning and now my knees hurt when I climb the stairs/bend them wtf. Hurry up period, hurry up.
Highlights of this week!
-I sold my green wig
-I got paid to make armbands for a friend (he gave me more than I asked just because <3333)
-I finished one of the chibis for NYAF (my friend loved it!!!)
- And I got to listen to Breaking Benjamin's new single "I will not bow" LOVE IT~!
I really need to make a non rageful entry but yeah. I just don't feel it. I need to lay down.
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Because everything is my fault
Aug. 26th, 2009 | 04:24 am
mood: 
blah
music: "I Will Not Bow" Breaking Benjamin
I'm tired of getting blamed for everything happening.
There is this huge ass green bug with large wigs about the size of my ipod in the bathroom and it is my fault for having my DVD player and some record albums in the hallway because I was too busy moving all my stuff in my room BY MYSELF on saturday and because I had to do my homework on sunday and didn't have time to organize everything (all my shit is in a corner). Yet it's not her son's fault for having shoes that smell like ASS in his room.
I swear she blames me for everything. It's pissing me off.
I gotta run to school. Will post a better entry soon since happier stuff has been happening but right now I hate talking to some of my family.
There is this huge ass green bug with large wigs about the size of my ipod in the bathroom and it is my fault for having my DVD player and some record albums in the hallway because I was too busy moving all my stuff in my room BY MYSELF on saturday and because I had to do my homework on sunday and didn't have time to organize everything (all my shit is in a corner). Yet it's not her son's fault for having shoes that smell like ASS in his room.
I swear she blames me for everything. It's pissing me off.
I gotta run to school. Will post a better entry soon since happier stuff has been happening but right now I hate talking to some of my family.
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Begin countdown!
Aug. 4th, 2009 | 10:50 am
mood: 
awake
music: "Love Game (Party Rock Remix)-Lady Gaga + LMFAO
TO NO MORE FREEDOM!!!!!!
I paid for my classes today. Yesterday we got a notice saying the last day would be the 5th, so we went up to drop my check off. I gave my grandfather the price of my books so he will be sending my dad with the money for them this weekend so we can buy them by Monday.
And my grandmother wanted me to go on vacation with them....I have too much to make sure I take care of!
I got kind of annoyed when she asked me. I don't remember if I posted this in my last entry but pretty much she said "your cousin needs something to play with at the water park". Mom snapped saying I wasn't a toy which is EXACTLY what I said to myself. I tried to think of every excuse to why I couldn't go. I just hate being around some of my cousin's for longer than I have to.
I love my family it's just they are really rude and disrespectful to each other. My older cousin got knocked up and had a baby who is now 3 years old and they call her a bitch and she calls her own mother a cow and this and that and I just don't want to be around that shit :/. Also I am sort of offended that my Grandmother only takes me on cheap trips. I am sorry if that makes me sound mega ungrateful but they are also going to Hawaii a few days right after this trip to our family's place on this mountain resort and never asked if I wanted to go. My parents would have saved up the money to send me but they never asked me not once. I have been going to this resort since I was 2 and I am sick of it to be honest. They don't even stay on the mountain anymore so it lost it's magic years ago. She just thinks I need to go because last time I was on my period and didn't get to go to the water park and thinks I just HAVE to go. The way she worded it turned me off to it. I am not anyone's play thing...
Talked to Elijah last night. I was mega tired so I went to bed early and he called me at 12 just to give me time to rest. I never got a chance to bring up how I felt >w<. I kinda just tossed it in like "hahahahaha I'm unwanted >___>" and he told me that it wasn't true but RWAR still I feel like he might get upset if I told him in detail how I am not wanted. I am sure it was just a matter of her being tired but idk... just gonna drop it for now.
On a slightly brighter note I got my bangs cut and went shopping!!
I picked up this red top from Goodwill. I love red but I barely own any red tops!!!! I like it :D the white part is actually my skirt I was trying to make it look kinda like a dress. It has an empire waist and makes me look preggers though ;A; I am thinking about adding some white fabric at the end kinda like it is now and trying to make it look more like a dress.
Also I am really into head bows now. Not really because of lolita fashion but just because it gives things the most cutest touch sometimes. I don't do crap to my hair and it just makes it look more complete in my opinion so I will be making tons of bows with my fabric scraps to go along with my outfits more unless it's just one of those outfit's that don't need it. Trying to make it an on going thing.
I want so badly a new digital camera. I hate this one :/ the pictures turn out really bad and the faces kinda never come out clear in my opinion. Sometimes they just look to pixely (sorry best I can think of). I hate it! I tried playing around with my camera settings so hopefully it will help?. My old camera was shitty but it had multiple settings and I had less blurry pictures. I liked this one better because I didn't need duct tape to close it and it was slicker and lighter than the old one. But idk. I know nothing about camera's to think about buying a new one ;w; I will just continue to mess with settings....
P.S. I miss Avis XD I think he went on a trip or something ;w; It feels odd not talking to him during the day lol!
I paid for my classes today. Yesterday we got a notice saying the last day would be the 5th, so we went up to drop my check off. I gave my grandfather the price of my books so he will be sending my dad with the money for them this weekend so we can buy them by Monday.
And my grandmother wanted me to go on vacation with them....I have too much to make sure I take care of!
I got kind of annoyed when she asked me. I don't remember if I posted this in my last entry but pretty much she said "your cousin needs something to play with at the water park". Mom snapped saying I wasn't a toy which is EXACTLY what I said to myself. I tried to think of every excuse to why I couldn't go. I just hate being around some of my cousin's for longer than I have to.
I love my family it's just they are really rude and disrespectful to each other. My older cousin got knocked up and had a baby who is now 3 years old and they call her a bitch and she calls her own mother a cow and this and that and I just don't want to be around that shit :/. Also I am sort of offended that my Grandmother only takes me on cheap trips. I am sorry if that makes me sound mega ungrateful but they are also going to Hawaii a few days right after this trip to our family's place on this mountain resort and never asked if I wanted to go. My parents would have saved up the money to send me but they never asked me not once. I have been going to this resort since I was 2 and I am sick of it to be honest. They don't even stay on the mountain anymore so it lost it's magic years ago. She just thinks I need to go because last time I was on my period and didn't get to go to the water park and thinks I just HAVE to go. The way she worded it turned me off to it. I am not anyone's play thing...
Talked to Elijah last night. I was mega tired so I went to bed early and he called me at 12 just to give me time to rest. I never got a chance to bring up how I felt >w<. I kinda just tossed it in like "hahahahaha I'm unwanted >___>" and he told me that it wasn't true but RWAR still I feel like he might get upset if I told him in detail how I am not wanted. I am sure it was just a matter of her being tired but idk... just gonna drop it for now.
On a slightly brighter note I got my bangs cut and went shopping!!
I picked up this red top from Goodwill. I love red but I barely own any red tops!!!! I like it :D the white part is actually my skirt I was trying to make it look kinda like a dress. It has an empire waist and makes me look preggers though ;A; I am thinking about adding some white fabric at the end kinda like it is now and trying to make it look more like a dress.
Also I am really into head bows now. Not really because of lolita fashion but just because it gives things the most cutest touch sometimes. I don't do crap to my hair and it just makes it look more complete in my opinion so I will be making tons of bows with my fabric scraps to go along with my outfits more unless it's just one of those outfit's that don't need it. Trying to make it an on going thing.
I want so badly a new digital camera. I hate this one :/ the pictures turn out really bad and the faces kinda never come out clear in my opinion. Sometimes they just look to pixely (sorry best I can think of). I hate it! I tried playing around with my camera settings so hopefully it will help?. My old camera was shitty but it had multiple settings and I had less blurry pictures. I liked this one better because I didn't need duct tape to close it and it was slicker and lighter than the old one. But idk. I know nothing about camera's to think about buying a new one ;w; I will just continue to mess with settings....
P.S. I miss Avis XD I think he went on a trip or something ;w; It feels odd not talking to him during the day lol!
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Back from Maryland =A=; (lots of bitching ahead)
Aug. 3rd, 2009 | 10:08 am
mood: 
sleepy
I'm back from visiting in Maryland. I ended up staying longer than usual by like a day. But while I was there I got the money for my school!! I have to get up there to pay them by like TOMORROW~!!!!!!!!!
My trip for the most part was fun but some of it just made me RAAAAAAAGE!
( Weekend post and bitching over here )
My trip for the most part was fun but some of it just made me RAAAAAAAGE!
( Weekend post and bitching over here )
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HOLY SHIT
Jul. 16th, 2009 | 06:48 pm
I have been posting alot lately...
Anyways my brother just sent me the most sweetest text message ever. It made me cry.
I love you too onii-chan ;A;
Anyways my brother just sent me the most sweetest text message ever. It made me cry.
I love you too onii-chan ;A;
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Back from Maryland
Jul. 3rd, 2009 | 07:05 am
location: COUCH OF HELL AND DISCOMFORT
mood: tired
music: "NEW WORLD"- BACK-ON
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( THE NEW WORLD ISN'T FAR AWAY!!! )
I feels like doing art for the rest of the day I want to draw Ket since I haven't drawn him at all this year.
EDIT: UDVFH forgot to mention that last night I saw my oldest cousin and she told me about how Brandon (this guy that goes to PG that has a big crush on me still and lives next door to my grandparents and LIES about us being close friends) asked her about me and if me and Elijah were still dating and trying to get information about how our relationship is going saying he doesn't think it will last because of the distance (yet it's been a year a 2 months already). Whenever he talks to me on Facebook he always says how lucky Elijah is and lied to him saying that my Grandpa hates him and that I was suppose to be his girlfriend and we go way back yet I never knew who he was just his brother. I knew he had a brother but I never saw him til last year at PG so this whole way back bullshit is a lie. I feel like writing him on facebook and telling him off but it's sort of amusing he cares so much. And lol hes my friend on facebook and it still says I am dating someone so the fact he needed to ask my cousin who knows nothing about my personal life is funny.
My cousin also told me about how she think she and her sister were abducted my aliens. The story was sort of freaky XD.
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Annoyed like shit.
Jun. 28th, 2009 | 10:57 am
mood: annoyed
So I almost opened my mouth and got in deep shit but at the last second I keep calm and just walked out.
Basically I went downstairs to turn the dryer off because my clothes were finished when my mom and older brother walk in with food. As I am getting mine food my brother gets all in my face blocking my view just staring at me so I jerk back annoyed and tell him to leave me alone it's really annoying and hes all "forget you! you don't have to be mean about it, I'm not taking your ass to school you have to walk" so I say whatever. I really don't want him to go to the same school as me let alone drive me because he can't fucking drive like he has sense anyways and then mom steps in with her "yes that not ever nice" (gee mom thanks for having my back....not......) comment while my brother continues to rag on me.
I wanted to just yell "at least the person I'm with isn't fucking around and has STDs"
Thank god I didn't say this because his "fuck buddy" was sitting right there on the couch and I didn't know it until I turned around to go upstairs.
And no I am not lying about the STD part. Apparently it's true because my brother called my mom crying that she called him saying she has one (sleeping around during there ONE WEEK BREAK-UP and he thinks he has one too now but it doesn't start to take affect for 1-3 weeks. Mom banned her from the house yet guess wut. SHE'S HERE RIGHT NOW!!!
My brother is so fucking annoying. And mom lets him get away with so much shit it's not even cool.
She complained saying how hes killing her truck with his speeding and how she plans on not letting him take the car yet the next day he was here she let him drive it all over the place. When he does annoying shit she doesn't do anything to really quit it or talk to him about personal space yet the second I snap and he starts bawing she MAKES ME APOLOGIES! shes never made him apologies to me ever. She complains she doesn't want his "friend" in the house yet they are all downstairs laughing and watching t.v I don't get this shit.
She lets him talk to her in any kind of language too and he just blows it off as a joke so he doesn't get trouble. My brother is the only joke.
I soooo hope he doesn't reach the deadline to apply I don't want to go to school with this bullshit.
Yesterday I made these:
I plan to give them to my boyfriend's rents as a thank you gift. I showed Elijah last night and he really loved them :) now I have to finish his Kaito scarf. The girl bun is my favorite she has a polkadot dress and pearl necklace <3 and the boy bun's jacket is made out of fabric for my Yui cosplay lol. I need to do some last minute hand sewing and then find something cute to pack them in but I don't think I have anything.
Basically I went downstairs to turn the dryer off because my clothes were finished when my mom and older brother walk in with food. As I am getting mine food my brother gets all in my face blocking my view just staring at me so I jerk back annoyed and tell him to leave me alone it's really annoying and hes all "forget you! you don't have to be mean about it, I'm not taking your ass to school you have to walk" so I say whatever. I really don't want him to go to the same school as me let alone drive me because he can't fucking drive like he has sense anyways and then mom steps in with her "yes that not ever nice" (gee mom thanks for having my back....not......) comment while my brother continues to rag on me.
I wanted to just yell "at least the person I'm with isn't fucking around and has STDs"
Thank god I didn't say this because his "fuck buddy" was sitting right there on the couch and I didn't know it until I turned around to go upstairs.
And no I am not lying about the STD part. Apparently it's true because my brother called my mom crying that she called him saying she has one (sleeping around during there ONE WEEK BREAK-UP and he thinks he has one too now but it doesn't start to take affect for 1-3 weeks. Mom banned her from the house yet guess wut. SHE'S HERE RIGHT NOW!!!
My brother is so fucking annoying. And mom lets him get away with so much shit it's not even cool.
She complained saying how hes killing her truck with his speeding and how she plans on not letting him take the car yet the next day he was here she let him drive it all over the place. When he does annoying shit she doesn't do anything to really quit it or talk to him about personal space yet the second I snap and he starts bawing she MAKES ME APOLOGIES! shes never made him apologies to me ever. She complains she doesn't want his "friend" in the house yet they are all downstairs laughing and watching t.v I don't get this shit.
She lets him talk to her in any kind of language too and he just blows it off as a joke so he doesn't get trouble. My brother is the only joke.
I soooo hope he doesn't reach the deadline to apply I don't want to go to school with this bullshit.
Yesterday I made these:
I plan to give them to my boyfriend's rents as a thank you gift. I showed Elijah last night and he really loved them :) now I have to finish his Kaito scarf. The girl bun is my favorite she has a polkadot dress and pearl necklace <3 and the boy bun's jacket is made out of fabric for my Yui cosplay lol. I need to do some last minute hand sewing and then find something cute to pack them in but I don't think I have anything.
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GAH MY FAMILY IS SO FLIPPIN ANNOYING!
May. 17th, 2009 | 05:27 pm
mood: bitchy
( Rant rant rant )
Happy Stuff
I got my grades for my first semester. Two A's and a :) very pleased with this. The website was acting weird so I called Izzy to help me and the second I get her on the phone it works so I ended up looking silly. We ended up chatting about anime and she told me to watch K-ON so I promised her I would and then she gave me a site to watch it on. I really like the art style of this anime and the opening I'll probably end up watching it today since I have nothing better to do. My family were pleased with my grades too.
Elijah is coming to visit me!!!! not this weekend but next weekend!! I'm excited to see him again!!! I still have to get him an anniversary present since he already has mine but I'm really stuck on ideas :/ I always draw him a card and bake him brownies so I want to not do that yet hes sort of expecting it lol.
Going back to bed >_>
I got my grades for my first semester. Two A's and a :) very pleased with this. The website was acting weird so I called Izzy to help me and the second I get her on the phone it works so I ended up looking silly. We ended up chatting about anime and she told me to watch K-ON so I promised her I would and then she gave me a site to watch it on. I really like the art style of this anime and the opening I'll probably end up watching it today since I have nothing better to do. My family were pleased with my grades too.
Elijah is coming to visit me!!!! not this weekend but next weekend!! I'm excited to see him again!!! I still have to get him an anniversary present since he already has mine but I'm really stuck on ideas :/ I always draw him a card and bake him brownies so I want to not do that yet hes sort of expecting it lol.
Going back to bed >_>