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Let's talk about race
Nov. 5th, 2009 | 12:58 pm
mood: 
busy
My least favorite subject.
I really hate it when people find the need to CONSTANTLY REMIND ME WHAT I AM. I am mixed (black,white,american indian and asian) and yet people feel the need to ride me on the fact that I am black. I already know this, my mother is black and I see her every day. I know my races and I don't do around gloating that I am this or that, people ask me, but I am getting so fucking sick a tired of a few people riding on me about being black out of everything.
I have this friend. He is an ass but he says out of everyone he hates me the least. We have class together and talk outside of class and I don't hate him the least bit but it annoys me when he constantly goes "YOUR A BLACK PERSON". He told me he'd never sleep with me because I am black dispite the fact that I am hot which I am glad he feels this way cause he isn't my type either and the though of that makes me want to vomit as I type this. Today I was talking and he makes a comment about me and add (opps but your black!) at the end the sentence (directed to me since I was the only one there at the time that is mixed) and it's like UEDFGHJDSKFG I get it! I know it! I knew it all my life, must I have to hear it every single day????????
Another thing that pisses me off is when the asian kids at my school have to constantly remind people that THEY are asian. This one guy was playing the piano and he didn't look like he could play so I asked him if he was really playing that from memory and he goes "Yeah I am asian!" wtf does that have to do with anything? The other asian guy add that to ALL of his sentences. Cheeko couldn't read something so the guy goes "I CAN READ IT CAUSE I AM ASIAN AND I HAVE SMALL EYES!" I need to ask him why he says that after all his sentences. He'll also go "THAT IS RACIST IS IT CAUSE I AM ASIAN" everytime someone says something >_>. I really hate people like that.
We can see you. We know what you are. You don't have to remind us.
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As far as life post is concerned my wisdom tooth is driving me insane and I am going to get it removed soon. On top of that I am stressed with sewing for AUSA! and I still need to buy shit from Target + ask my dad if he will give me the money I am missing for the hotel ;A; (I saved a lot but I need to eat!. I have been using my card a bit ;A; I am sure I don't have all the money for the hotel but I was already a few bucks short anyways! He'll be here tomorrow night so I can ask him!!
Also, everyone is so into deers now it makes me want something! I really want this adorable fabric from etsy for my birthday so I can make a dress with it!
Tomorrow is Fall Festival ;A; I sort of want to stay for an hour and then leave cause I have to do stuff (like washing my hair with dish washing liquid because of a accident! oh joy!)
***EDIT: A few months ago I had a dream that my school taught a ghost hunting class but I when I woke up I laughed about it never happening....GUESS WHAT
THEY JUST OPENED A GHOST HUNTING CLASS!
My dreams usually always happen this way but since I think they are dreams I never pay attention to them until something really happens. It's so cool they go to haunted locations and everything!!!!! <333333333333 I love you ACC but I doubt my Grandpa would want to pay for me to learn about Ghost Hunting.
I really hate it when people find the need to CONSTANTLY REMIND ME WHAT I AM. I am mixed (black,white,american indian and asian) and yet people feel the need to ride me on the fact that I am black. I already know this, my mother is black and I see her every day. I know my races and I don't do around gloating that I am this or that, people ask me, but I am getting so fucking sick a tired of a few people riding on me about being black out of everything.
I have this friend. He is an ass but he says out of everyone he hates me the least. We have class together and talk outside of class and I don't hate him the least bit but it annoys me when he constantly goes "YOUR A BLACK PERSON". He told me he'd never sleep with me because I am black dispite the fact that I am hot which I am glad he feels this way cause he isn't my type either and the though of that makes me want to vomit as I type this. Today I was talking and he makes a comment about me and add (opps but your black!) at the end the sentence (directed to me since I was the only one there at the time that is mixed) and it's like UEDFGHJDSKFG I get it! I know it! I knew it all my life, must I have to hear it every single day????????
Another thing that pisses me off is when the asian kids at my school have to constantly remind people that THEY are asian. This one guy was playing the piano and he didn't look like he could play so I asked him if he was really playing that from memory and he goes "Yeah I am asian!" wtf does that have to do with anything? The other asian guy add that to ALL of his sentences. Cheeko couldn't read something so the guy goes "I CAN READ IT CAUSE I AM ASIAN AND I HAVE SMALL EYES!" I need to ask him why he says that after all his sentences. He'll also go "THAT IS RACIST IS IT CAUSE I AM ASIAN" everytime someone says something >_>. I really hate people like that.
We can see you. We know what you are. You don't have to remind us.
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As far as life post is concerned my wisdom tooth is driving me insane and I am going to get it removed soon. On top of that I am stressed with sewing for AUSA! and I still need to buy shit from Target + ask my dad if he will give me the money I am missing for the hotel ;A; (I saved a lot but I need to eat!. I have been using my card a bit ;A; I am sure I don't have all the money for the hotel but I was already a few bucks short anyways! He'll be here tomorrow night so I can ask him!!
Also, everyone is so into deers now it makes me want something! I really want this adorable fabric from etsy for my birthday so I can make a dress with it!
Tomorrow is Fall Festival ;A; I sort of want to stay for an hour and then leave cause I have to do stuff (like washing my hair with dish washing liquid because of a accident! oh joy!)
***EDIT: A few months ago I had a dream that my school taught a ghost hunting class but I when I woke up I laughed about it never happening....GUESS WHAT
My dreams usually always happen this way but since I think they are dreams I never pay attention to them until something really happens. It's so cool they go to haunted locations and everything!!!!! <333333333333 I love you ACC but I doubt my Grandpa would want to pay for me to learn about Ghost Hunting.
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Seriously?
Oct. 20th, 2009 | 11:01 am
I broke my school bag today. Or rather mom did by putting a curse on it.
The last thing she said to me was "That bag is gonna break soon" and it was perfectly fine all day til I saw her and the strap snapped...
I could sew it but I really don't think the seams will hold much :/ and I don't have any other bags this size for my laptop. I mean I have a laptop bag but it's so bulky it's heavy and it's annoying to carry. I kind of wish I had bought a mini laptop. There so cute and easy to carry rather than mine =A=; urfhn
Back to bag shopping......
I can't wait til Thursday ;A;
The last thing she said to me was "That bag is gonna break soon" and it was perfectly fine all day til I saw her and the strap snapped...
I could sew it but I really don't think the seams will hold much :/ and I don't have any other bags this size for my laptop. I mean I have a laptop bag but it's so bulky it's heavy and it's annoying to carry. I kind of wish I had bought a mini laptop. There so cute and easy to carry rather than mine =A=; urfhn
Back to bag shopping......
I can't wait til Thursday ;A;
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WHAT THE FUCK.
Oct. 18th, 2009 | 01:30 pm
mood: 
bitchy
I HATE relying on my brother to do shit for me.
I'm sitting here starving so he goes to make a Mc Donalds run. Not only does he take FOREVER to come back but he gets the wrong shit! How does a 5 piece chicken nugget meal turn into a quarter ponder cheese burger?. To top it off everyone starts bitching at me for not scraping the cheese off. I am sick of mc donalds hamburgers and it's not what I wanted it's not my damn fault he's too brainless to check the orders before speeding off.
I'm sitting here starving so he goes to make a Mc Donalds run. Not only does he take FOREVER to come back but he gets the wrong shit! How does a 5 piece chicken nugget meal turn into a quarter ponder cheese burger?. To top it off everyone starts bitching at me for not scraping the cheese off. I am sick of mc donalds hamburgers and it's not what I wanted it's not my damn fault he's too brainless to check the orders before speeding off.
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LET'S DO THIS GANG!
Sep. 16th, 2009 | 02:31 pm
mood: 
ecstatic
We got a Fred!
For our Scoody Doo group :) it's some guy I just met today (well we never met properly cause I don't know his name!, I'll call him Freddy >_> ) he is friends with Laura and Cheeko (Daphine and Shaggy for the group) and he is super tall but he isn't blond. It's more dirty blond? light brown? idk. The point is. WE HAVE EVERYONE~! JINKIES! (<--- that line was totally used today). As for plans Laura wants to go to a party or a club >w< I'm not a clubber so I am trying to avoid it but I know where going to school dressed up and then Halloween day were doing a photo shoot (hell now we need a cameraman). Our Scooby Doo shall be the lovely Bailey because he is brown and mine XD.
We are currently planning the photo shoot locations but as far as I know it might be an abandoned house and by the lake or something.
I now need to:
-Buy Orange sweater (EW GROSS! only for cosplay shall I wear buy anything like this)
-Buy red skirt of fabric for red skirt
-FIND ORANGE SOCKS! (I may have to get these online)
-Figure out how to do my hair (haven't chosen but I don't want to cut it)
-Make a Scooby Doo collar and tag for Bailey
I'm really excited about the photo shoot and running around with the gang because we miiight actually have Scooby Snacks! someone offered to make us a batch today :D yay~
Oh! Update about Onlywig. BITCHES BILLED ME $7 ANYWAYS. I filed a claim saying I never got my item and I am not paying more money for their mistake. I am aware if the buyer is unhappy they can pay shipping to send it back but I never even got the right item to determine if I am happy with it or not. And guess what? the wig they mailed me they don't even sell! I checked to show Colleen and it wasn't there at all!!!! WTF!
Raaaage!
Eh I'm off to do English work and do some more drawings that popped in my head recently~
For our Scoody Doo group :) it's some guy I just met today (well we never met properly cause I don't know his name!, I'll call him Freddy >_> ) he is friends with Laura and Cheeko (Daphine and Shaggy for the group) and he is super tall but he isn't blond. It's more dirty blond? light brown? idk. The point is. WE HAVE EVERYONE~! JINKIES! (<--- that line was totally used today). As for plans Laura wants to go to a party or a club >w< I'm not a clubber so I am trying to avoid it but I know where going to school dressed up and then Halloween day were doing a photo shoot (hell now we need a cameraman). Our Scooby Doo shall be the lovely Bailey because he is brown and mine XD.
We are currently planning the photo shoot locations but as far as I know it might be an abandoned house and by the lake or something.
I now need to:
-Buy Orange sweater (EW GROSS! only for cosplay shall I wear buy anything like this)
-Buy red skirt of fabric for red skirt
-FIND ORANGE SOCKS! (I may have to get these online)
-Figure out how to do my hair (haven't chosen but I don't want to cut it)
-Make a Scooby Doo collar and tag for Bailey
I'm really excited about the photo shoot and running around with the gang because we miiight actually have Scooby Snacks! someone offered to make us a batch today :D yay~
Oh! Update about Onlywig. BITCHES BILLED ME $7 ANYWAYS. I filed a claim saying I never got my item and I am not paying more money for their mistake. I am aware if the buyer is unhappy they can pay shipping to send it back but I never even got the right item to determine if I am happy with it or not. And guess what? the wig they mailed me they don't even sell! I checked to show Colleen and it wasn't there at all!!!! WTF!
Raaaage!
Eh I'm off to do English work and do some more drawings that popped in my head recently~
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Shenanigans + Remind me NEVER to buy from Onlywig EVER AGAIN.
Sep. 15th, 2009 | 06:58 am
mood: 
disappointed
My horoscope "SHOULD" say "Avoid taking the stairs" because today I twisted my ankle. Not once but TWICE! and not the same ankle lol.
First I twisted my ankle at home because I left my money and my computer charger and as I was running down the stairs. I think I skipped a stair and it just twisted.
The second time I was at school and I was running down the stairs to my locker (because due to almost losing my Chihauhau,and my money and my cord I was late!!!!!!!!!!!!) and as soon as I got to the bottom of the stairs I twisted my other ankle. Rofl great.
Anyways I was late to english and my teacher made me read out loud in class lol. It wasn't that bad though.
So yeah. I will never buy shit from Onlywig on eBay ever again. I wrote before that I got the wrong wig so right after that I sent them a message on eBay and took a photo of the wrong wig for clarification like they asked me to. Anyways they sent me a message back telling me to keep the wrong wig but they want me to give them an extra $8. Heres the problem. I only have $7.66 USD not enough for the shipping and paypal fees. I really feel like I shouldn't have to give them more money to fix their mistakes and as a business they should use the money I already paid them to ship me the correct one since it's not like I am unhappy with the wig. I just never got the correct one I ordered. And now guess what?. Their not replying to me. I dunno what to do :/ I am really disappointed in them and will be leaving them massive negative feedback. As for the wig I am thinking about using the Sharpie method to just dye the wig dark purple. It is possible and Colleen has dyed wigs this way before and probably could help me. But now I have to buy a lot of fucking sharpies TT ^ TT; woe is me.
Btw this journal will be getting a MASSIVE remodeling this weekend. I am way to busy this week to fool around with it now.
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My head feels like it's gonna explode
Aug. 27th, 2009 | 03:21 pm
mood: bitchy
Why must I be surrounded by idiots.
My brother went to the store and bought drinks and milk and cookies (the kind that you just toss in the oven) AND LEFT THEM OUT ON THE COUNTER. I didn't see them for like an hour later. WTF. I swear he can't walk and think at the same time.
It's like he expected me to put them away. And if I don't I'd get bitched at later for it.
I seriously wish I wasn't so stressed out and bitchy all the time. But I can't help it. Right when things are going good something just flips it over for me. That and my period. It's late because I have been so stressed out and then I got sick. But I get cramps every morning and now my knees hurt when I climb the stairs/bend them wtf. Hurry up period, hurry up.
Highlights of this week!
-I sold my green wig
-I got paid to make armbands for a friend (he gave me more than I asked just because <3333)
-I finished one of the chibis for NYAF (my friend loved it!!!)
- And I got to listen to Breaking Benjamin's new single "I will not bow" LOVE IT~!
I really need to make a non rageful entry but yeah. I just don't feel it. I need to lay down.
My brother went to the store and bought drinks and milk and cookies (the kind that you just toss in the oven) AND LEFT THEM OUT ON THE COUNTER. I didn't see them for like an hour later. WTF. I swear he can't walk and think at the same time.
It's like he expected me to put them away. And if I don't I'd get bitched at later for it.
I seriously wish I wasn't so stressed out and bitchy all the time. But I can't help it. Right when things are going good something just flips it over for me. That and my period. It's late because I have been so stressed out and then I got sick. But I get cramps every morning and now my knees hurt when I climb the stairs/bend them wtf. Hurry up period, hurry up.
Highlights of this week!
-I sold my green wig
-I got paid to make armbands for a friend (he gave me more than I asked just because <3333)
-I finished one of the chibis for NYAF (my friend loved it!!!)
- And I got to listen to Breaking Benjamin's new single "I will not bow" LOVE IT~!
I really need to make a non rageful entry but yeah. I just don't feel it. I need to lay down.
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FUCK EVERYTHING.
Aug. 19th, 2009 | 07:42 pm
mood: bitchy
I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE.
Today I discovered maggots have invaded my room. My fan broke and left a crack in my ceiling kinda an apparently something died and maggots have started eating at it/crawling threw the crack. We don't know what it is because we do have bats and other creatures in the attic. But now I can't sleep in my room and have to spend the entire weekend removing and cleaning EVERYTHING in my room because mom is paranoid.
FUCK MY LIFE
No school rants today I have one but eh. So much as happened and I am so exhausted. I just want to sleep and never wake up but my big brother's bed is uncomfy (its a good thing he is working in Maryland huh? or I'd be SOL on the couch.
Let's pray tomorrow will be brighter.
Today I discovered maggots have invaded my room. My fan broke and left a crack in my ceiling kinda an apparently something died and maggots have started eating at it/crawling threw the crack. We don't know what it is because we do have bats and other creatures in the attic. But now I can't sleep in my room and have to spend the entire weekend removing and cleaning EVERYTHING in my room because mom is paranoid.
No school rants today I have one but eh. So much as happened and I am so exhausted. I just want to sleep and never wake up but my big brother's bed is uncomfy (its a good thing he is working in Maryland huh? or I'd be SOL on the couch.
Let's pray tomorrow will be brighter.
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People annoy the shit out of me
Aug. 15th, 2009 | 09:53 am
mood: bitchy
I don't get why I let people get to me. It's just ugh sometimes I seriously want to punch someone in the face.
I have too many pet peeves maybe. I can't STAND it when people carry on jokes until they are just old and annoying. My friend Charles saw me come to school once in all black cause I felt like wearing black and automatically he calls me emo and says I am in denial. I tried to brush it off cause out of some people I do like talking to him but I can't talk to him or post shit on facebook without him going "YOUR AN EEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
People have even came into my post going "Jenn isn't emo, shes preppy and girly" yet he insist he knows me. Well he doesn't. He thinks my hair is black yet it is clearly BROWN! he thinks my clothes are emo yet I just like different styles of clothes. I mean fuck I wore my bright ass Bodyline Fruits Parlor to skirt to school one day we hung out yet he chooses the day I wear black to label me forever. I can show up in bright colors one day and then black another it deeps on my mood. I just feel like slapping him every time he brings it up. Uuugh. I'm not looking forward to seeing him or Allen next week...and I can't even avoid them because they know where anime club is and they show up just to bother/talk to me cause everyone else thinks they are annoying..That's what I get for being a good girl. Annoying "friends" seriously....
Or maybe I just need a chill pill. Things people have been saying/doing have been setting me off lately. But that's all because I hate being ignored and not heard and I hate it when things drag on. Get an lol or two and stfu!.
I had more to write about but eh, I'm gonna do some laundry instead. Maybe I'll post again later.
P.S. Foreign guy called again. Bitch is calling me from TURKEY! trying to find his friend in NC. Mom answered and bitched him out for calling me a liar and he still kept insisting it wasn't the wrong number but I think he finally understands now. He says it is the right number but he probably go one number wrong or something. Fuck people. Seriously? When you keep dialing and no one is picking up/people are telling you its the wrong number don't keep calling it. IT WILL NOT CHANGE!.
I have too many pet peeves maybe. I can't STAND it when people carry on jokes until they are just old and annoying. My friend Charles saw me come to school once in all black cause I felt like wearing black and automatically he calls me emo and says I am in denial. I tried to brush it off cause out of some people I do like talking to him but I can't talk to him or post shit on facebook without him going "YOUR AN EEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
People have even came into my post going "Jenn isn't emo, shes preppy and girly" yet he insist he knows me. Well he doesn't. He thinks my hair is black yet it is clearly BROWN! he thinks my clothes are emo yet I just like different styles of clothes. I mean fuck I wore my bright ass Bodyline Fruits Parlor to skirt to school one day we hung out yet he chooses the day I wear black to label me forever. I can show up in bright colors one day and then black another it deeps on my mood. I just feel like slapping him every time he brings it up. Uuugh. I'm not looking forward to seeing him or Allen next week...and I can't even avoid them because they know where anime club is and they show up just to bother/talk to me cause everyone else thinks they are annoying..That's what I get for being a good girl. Annoying "friends" seriously....
Or maybe I just need a chill pill. Things people have been saying/doing have been setting me off lately. But that's all because I hate being ignored and not heard and I hate it when things drag on. Get an lol or two and stfu!.
I had more to write about but eh, I'm gonna do some laundry instead. Maybe I'll post again later.
P.S. Foreign guy called again. Bitch is calling me from TURKEY! trying to find his friend in NC. Mom answered and bitched him out for calling me a liar and he still kept insisting it wasn't the wrong number but I think he finally understands now. He says it is the right number but he probably go one number wrong or something. Fuck people. Seriously? When you keep dialing and no one is picking up/people are telling you its the wrong number don't keep calling it. IT WILL NOT CHANGE!.
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Yep.
Aug. 9th, 2009 | 07:53 am
Rough night....I couldn't sleep for some reason even though I was tired. I woke up at like 3 starving so I ate some Breyer's cookies and creme ice cream. It was so good ;3; then I just sort of forced myself to sleep. I am still kinda eh about being awake.
I have been drawing my ass off trying to come up with design ideas and idk I don't think I like Threadless after all >_> I am not quiting because it is just like what my 3rd day with this idea? it's just kinda hard to navigate threw the site and it seems they are more focus on only showing approved designs than giving those looking for feedback more coverage. There is like this tiny little link at the bottom of the page for that on the fourms. Lame. I get they want people to choose which approved designs but I just think it should be advertised more that their are people looking for feedback etc etc what have you.
So while I have been trying to get that off the ground I have been looking into alternative methods for printing shirts that is kind of like Threadless. MySoti seems pretty good! I love it in a way...BUT their "PINK" is more "PURPLE" meaning I can't use the design I made last night unless I use it on light blue,PURPLE,red,white or black. It looks pretty good on light blue but I had my heart set on pink!!!! the whole design and color scheme was set on PINK!
The design I am taking about is this one here under this cut:
( <3333333 )
So yeah. Today will be spent looking for sites!! yay.
P.S. Is it just me or does anyone else hate it when people skip over the artist comments on deviantart. People take time to write those and ask in depth questions and people just skip over them,ask questions that where already answered,or not answer the question. I need more artist friends.
I have been drawing my ass off trying to come up with design ideas and idk I don't think I like Threadless after all >_> I am not quiting because it is just like what my 3rd day with this idea? it's just kinda hard to navigate threw the site and it seems they are more focus on only showing approved designs than giving those looking for feedback more coverage. There is like this tiny little link at the bottom of the page for that on the fourms. Lame. I get they want people to choose which approved designs but I just think it should be advertised more that their are people looking for feedback etc etc what have you.
So while I have been trying to get that off the ground I have been looking into alternative methods for printing shirts that is kind of like Threadless. MySoti seems pretty good! I love it in a way...BUT their "PINK" is more "PURPLE" meaning I can't use the design I made last night unless I use it on light blue,PURPLE,red,white or black. It looks pretty good on light blue but I had my heart set on pink!!!! the whole design and color scheme was set on PINK!
The design I am taking about is this one here under this cut:
( <3333333 )
So yeah. Today will be spent looking for sites!! yay.
P.S. Is it just me or does anyone else hate it when people skip over the artist comments on deviantart. People take time to write those and ask in depth questions and people just skip over them,ask questions that where already answered,or not answer the question. I need more artist friends.
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I hate facebook
Aug. 5th, 2009 | 01:50 pm
mood: annoyed
I posted some pics today and guess what PEOPLE COMMENTED ON MY ALBUM INSTEAD OF THE PICS. After I posted ON THE ALBUM saying I dislike it when people comment on the album and that I hate spam and you know what. People spammed me anyways about a conversation that happened 2 months ago. One friend wrote "no comment" lol then why fucking comment in the first place?
Sorry it just annoys me greatly when people post on the entire album about 1 picture. I feel like deleting them all but it seems rude at the same time :/
And giant bees are in the process of invading my house. I swear these suckers are about the size of a cicada!!! Yesterday two popped up in the house and I think a 3rd is here too in my brother's room (I locked it inside because I don't want to fight it alone!!). We didn't have time to go out and buy screens like we planned to seal all the vents (I think they are coming from the attic vents) because the new girl on my mom's job has too many problems and always has to leave early or call out. These aren't serious issues either.. she just doesn't want to work. She calls my mom about three times a week to work for her and manager doesn't say shit about it. It's annoying even to me and I don't even work there :/
Sorry it just annoys me greatly when people post on the entire album about 1 picture. I feel like deleting them all but it seems rude at the same time :/
And giant bees are in the process of invading my house. I swear these suckers are about the size of a cicada!!! Yesterday two popped up in the house and I think a 3rd is here too in my brother's room (I locked it inside because I don't want to fight it alone!!). We didn't have time to go out and buy screens like we planned to seal all the vents (I think they are coming from the attic vents) because the new girl on my mom's job has too many problems and always has to leave early or call out. These aren't serious issues either.. she just doesn't want to work. She calls my mom about three times a week to work for her and manager doesn't say shit about it. It's annoying even to me and I don't even work there :/